What was your ulterior motive, motivation, in deeply pursuing computer science or programming as a discipline?
Overall, this is a tough question, but to me it's enjoying the act of creation and overall understanding. To outsiders, sciences (such as programming, mathematics and so on) can not be aesthetically pleasing or have an artistic component to them because they're [mis]understood to be too rigid. A prerequisite to creation of great things is technical knowledge and (more indispensably, but also rather fundamentally) good taste.
i enjoy seeing beautiful things, but not nearly as much as i do enjoy creating them; sadly this has gotten somewhat devalued. Because technical skill complements taste, and the former is not necessary anymore, a lot of things can be technically impressive but uninteresting and tasteless. conversely, it's easier than ever for these with good taste and technical skill to create things.
Sensibility is highly nonlinear and hard to optimise for, which is why so many Silicon Valley and SFBay bros spend so much time trying to unsuccessfully reverse-engineer it from first principles. They have certainly succeeded in appealing to the masses, though. i am convinced that the average person is swayed by AI writing style and thinks of it as elegant and profound.
More generally, it's a testament to the fact that most literary art is just a pretense; cf. the recent award-winning French novel that was entirely generated by AI. I have always passively hated mainstream "artistic" movements and i'm happy that this hate has been vindicated.
